I never gave the update, but I finally heard from the husband on Friday. Big relief! There is nothing better than waking up in the morning to my sweetie calling me! It was so nice to hear from him. It had been almost a week! Ick!
He’s being jerked around right now, and while I was happy to hear from him and talk to him the other day, we are back on the no communication for a while thing while he finishes up what he is trying to do. I have to tell you, it broke my heart talking to him. He’s so discouraged, and is full on hating this deployment. He’s the strong one in this relationship. He’s the one that keeps me in line, and keeps me together. Hearing him sound broken? It breaks me.
We are on the downslide for this deployment though, and nothing makes me happier. I feel like I hit a stride there for a while, and was doing really well, but as those of you who have gone through deployments know, that “stride” has it’s ups and downs. Right now, it’s on it’s way down.
I’m over this. I’m LONELY! I want my husband home! And I feel like, even though it’s a lot closer than 12 months, November just seems so far from now. In the beginning, I hated the alone time that consumed my evenings and weekends. Eventually I got used to it, and rather enjoyed the time to myself. The time to relax and reflect.
Now? Im back to lonely mode. And it sucks.
Luckily for me, these next few months are going to fly by (hopefully!) I have a couple work related trips, as well as some FUN trips that I am very much looking forward to! Staying busy is the key, and I definitely am trying to do that!
Ok … venting/bitching done!
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I’m glad you got to talk to him! I asked Matt about him last night and he said that he was ok. I think they are all getting frustrated and are way over this deployment. They all just need to come home!
My husband and I are having the same issues with him being jerked around like a rag doll and also HATING this deployment…it is so hard to hear your strength/husband broken! We’re about half way through now, so I just try to be supportive but the loneliness is definitely taking a toll. Good luck to you both!
I am so happy that you finally got to talk to him! I am also happy that this deployment is coming towards a close for you guys! You are strong and you know you can get through it! I am thinking good thoughts for you!